They say you become 'comfortable' once you get into a relationship. For some, the motivation and drive to continuously look good is still there and simply part of their everyday living. For others, the love you receive from a partner clouds all motivation, clouds negative thought processes, clouds poor self esteem and clouds the reality of weight gain. Unfortunately I fell under that category and 9 years and 3 kids later I have gained a whopping 30 extra killer kilos I simply do not need, do not want and more importantly can not have. The health effects this could possibly have on me if I were to continue sitting on my butt is astounding and simply down right freaking scary!
The clouds are fading so to speak. The love is still there and stronger than ever but my mind and my thoughts about body image is so overpowering that I have come to realise that after 9 years and 3 children the negative thought processes are still there and are actually stronger than they were in the beginning. The poor self esteem is also still there and is so poor that I often decline social invitations for the simple fact that I can't find clothes that look good let alone make me feel good. The reality of weight gain has hit me the hardest. A big fat slap in the face type wake up call.
So here I am, making changes. I've signed up to the Michelle Bridges 12WBT and the only way from here is up. I WILL lose the killer kilos, I WILL learn to live a healthy lifestyle and I WILL build up my self esteem. Negative thought processes will no longer manifest and I WILL become a better me. It's my time!!
'A smile clouds reality'
